1.56am!

Why oh why am I awake? I have too many TOL dancers prancing about in my head! And then there's SUPERCALAFRAGALISTICEXPEALADOSIOUS! Life has moved on again since my last post... My sabbatical has been and gone. It’s hard to believe I had 4 months off work... It went quickly as I thought it would but I did pack in quite a lot and it was definitely what I needed. To mention just a few of the highlights: Liverpool & Wired Aerial, The Rugby, Brownsea Island, Snettisham, Long walks with Jakie, and relaxed stress free days. It was so nice to do what I wanted when I wanted and to my surprise I didn’t have a single day when I was bored... I also didn’t get any work done! I had planned to give the house an overhaul and finally do the NCDC accounts but once I got into 'doing what I wanted' mode it was too hard to do any real work! It a least proves that it’s not about time but about inclination... It also proved that work or should I say over work is not the root of my depression (I knew that it wasn’t but did wonder if being so manically busy didn’t help) Although it wasn’t all the time I did still have a fair few DD days for no apparent reason, Bloody annoying!!!! Which brings me to my next BIG news...? I have finally taken the plunge and gone on the tabs and omg it has made SUCH a difference... I haven’t had a D day since... I still have days when I feel a bit flat but NOTHING like it was before and best of all I can actually get up in the mornings.. It really had turned things around - Halleluiah!... Jake is still the apple of my eye, and Lloyd my rock. Mum has another boyfriend who’s just a friend and she cant quite figure it out… is he Gay? I don’t think its gonna remain platonic for very much longer… Well sleepy now so better try my bed again…. Until the next time Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz